wanna know what i'm never gonna do anymore? like actually never gonna do it?
okay well i am never gonna do that STUPID fucking girl thing called game playing/overanalyzing w boys! i'm gonna BE myself. i'm gonna text them back right when they text me, even if my friends are telling me to play hard to get. if i want to call or text or message or any of that shit i'm gonna do it and not ask any of my friends first. i'm not gonna ask my friends what they think about my phrasing of that text or message, and if i do, it won't change whether or not i send it etc. i'm not gonna beat myself up for occasionally having some stage 5 clinger tendencies. i'm not gonna hold it against myself that i made the effort or put myself out there or got rejected or played or ignored or ANYTHING. I DON'T CARE. i'm not looking for anyone or anything right now except a happy life and career for myself. the only game i play in love is the self-respect game, and the high-risk taking game! if i get brutally shutdown or if i end up alone for the rest of my life, so be it, cause it is what it is and game playing is torture.
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